I MAY BE A BITCH TO CERTAIN PEOPLE.
I MAY BE A WHORE TO YOU POEPLE.
ITS MY LIFE. BACK OFF YOU DAMN PEOPLE.
rebellious-rebellious

Dear diary,
today, after English paper 1&2 went home
with Rachael&Syafiqah. the sweetie.
Today was damn toot thirsty but i tahan punye.
Reached home,reached out the the laptop and
switch on- wee~! chat with couple of nice people.
Chatted with m brother whose working at that tyme
The conversation started like this.....

Abg: kau tak habis habis msn msn msn msn.
irah: oh.haha
Abg: aku dekat keje boring!
irah: boring? dah gaji kan.. tak yah keje uh.
Abg: ceh kau. aku nak beli baju sume.dpt save $50 ajer.kau fikir mintak mama
and abah duit senang per.
Irah: alah.mintak jer. mama&abah faham faham jer uh.haha
Abg: ey kau. aku dah tue. tak patot mintak mintak. bukan mcm kau.
irah: hah.ey..
Abg: aku tahu..duit kau(as he borrowed my 18 bucks since..centuries..)
Abg: jgn tkt, aku dah asing kan. Nanti mlm aku kasi.
irah: haha. ohtey
irah: ey.. yaya nak siap uh
Abg: kau nie nak merayap gie maner seiytan?
irah: tak la. ikut mama and bibik gie geylamg ke aper la. LECEH.
Abg: ikut jer .jgn byk soal. bising.
Abg: dah la. aku nak buat keje. bye
End of conversation- wee~

Then, siap siap go follow mama lorh.
reach home around 6.50.
quickly prepare foods to buka.
then, bang, eat lorh.
and here i am posting.

english paper was easy.
certain question abit difficult la horh.
hope i pass so that mom will stop
her nagging and all! argh!

GoodBye, i never i wanna see u again.
fuck off whore. wahha!
GoodBye! take care holly shits.

Irah'Licious

MY LIFE NOW IS LIKE SHIT! BUT IM LOVING IT.

Dear diary,
School was fine today. As usual, sleepy..
Went home at 5 pm with Nathasha&Rebecca.
Had to bring home all books and hell,it was sucking.
Alif brought home my mly file.Rebecca brought home
My mathematics textbook. My e-flat clarinet still with xNadx.

-friends-
Alot of stupid werds were written all over my stuff.
Hell, its irritating but yea, i dont feel sad or watever fucking
shit about it. im loving it.
you guys said, im a bitch. ohhtey... i know that la.
but hey, its wrong to form a bad compliment when you
dont even know me well. and hello,
IF IM A BITCH, REMEMBER, YOU USED TO BE MY
CLOSEST EVER FRIEND IN WGS. SLUT. lame la.
A mature people doing childish stuff.
C'mon la. get a life.. wahha.
I smile when ever i see such things.
Girls can't live without being bitchy. think la!!

-teachers-
Stop with your baisness.
stop with all the complaints la.
i hate it la! if ive change, let it be.
its my life and who the hell are you
trying to control me. just stop it. argh.

-family-
CONFIDENTIAL..thank you.


Tomrrow is e-o-y.
Cool. friends, go on doing
this things la. i dun mind.
thank you uh! wahahah.

If you guys thinks ive damnly change
and hate me. ader mulot, bebual uh.
and its not me who is trying to be a
stupid damn black metal. its lame.

I maybe smoking,drinking,piercing.
maybe not....
BUT HELL!!! DO YOU CARE?!?
its my life okay. if i feel better this way
just back off. im sick and tired of
people,teachers, parent controlling me.
Ive made my decision. final one.
I WANT TO BE REBELLIOUS.
I WANT TO BE WHAT I WANT.
I WANT TO BE A DIFFERENT KIND.
its my life, once again.
im not trying to fight or watever
bull-shit. but ey, pls la.
stop all the nonsense. thank you.
you guys were great friend.
conflict is part of life.
you.. may be the next one.

not keeping in touch with khairul anymore.
and yasmin, wanna meet you. thank you.

Bye la people! im soo sick and fucking tired.
Irah'rebellious

Dear Diary,

Today, went home early at..hmm 11.15? yeah
Having a bad headache. My body is damn cold.
Maybe im nervous about the mathematics test.
Oh well, have to sit for it tmr with the paper 2. SUX!

Happy Birthday to the Twins
Khalil and "Khalis".
Happy Birthday to my ex la.

A girl in my class haf been spreading
things which is wrong.
Yes i did contacted Yasmin and feel that
I'M INFLUENCED by her way of speaking and
watever la. but im nt following her or watever
damn shit of being a black metal. I find it
toot toot merepek la. she's nice la.
Go on, tell my friends, fiqa and all la.
dosa pon kau yg tanggungkan.
arghhhh!!! get the HELL out of her.

watever. went to causeway with mama
to pay stuff and bought MR MYSTERY.
watever. Went to nenek's place
then rest. Nice nap.. Enot not around. argh.
Miss my Niece. miss her. miss her. yeah.

well, gonna stop here for the fun of it.

EY PEOPLE!
HADY MIRZA WON AND SOME DAMN JUDGES
ARE NOT HAPPY WITH THE RESULT.
GET THE FACT LA, HE'S VERY GOOD.
JONATHAN IS LIKE, CANT SING FOR THE
SINGLE. ARGH! i voted 50 + tyme for hady. wee~

Hello Diary XD

today i went out with kim rachael to causeway.
Bought school shoe and jln jln. Full of laughters !
shiok uh today. Thank rachael. reach home around 4 i think.

A few hours after that, called YASMIN!. cool!
Nice talking to her.. we talk till night like that.
all sorts of names came out. penyu, sheman..!
I miss you darling yas. wahah! darlinku! yea bebeh.

sis and mom went for terawih and here i am chatting
with her. shiok uh babe. i lyke her man.. as in, a friend la.
cool uh... aniways aniways, she's awesome.!

Tomorrow dah puase. arghh! confirm tak leh tahan.
shit la. no maki maki la amirah.. wahah

K la. gtg.
Need to layan mi darling YAS INSANE. hehe
Irah'licious

ITS THE MATTER OF LOVE.
NOT THE MATTER OF NT KNOWING WHAT TO DO

Dear diary,

Came home around 5 plus.
Had extra tuition with Mr billy "big tummy".
played netball for a while.
Headed home with Syafiqah and Nathasha.
Syafiqah Belanja us a drink though we got money.
Thank you! ahahahahahahhahah.

Well, in school was great.
Accept for something.
Came to sch, ferst period.
Friends came up to me and
tell me all sorts of things about Khairul.
Asked khai if its true, and yeah, its true.
My friends ain't lying though they hate me.
Thanks friends.

Things are going mad! Everything is in a mess.
Instead of smiling and laughing as per normal,
I'm walking alone and upset. arghh..

Friends told me to put the matter b0ut him aside.
Should I? I think so. hehek
Didnt talk to Nasri today. hahah.

hell, i gt nth to say.

Irahlicious

HOW I WISH IM NOT THE ONE WHO'S FACING SUCH PROBLEMS.
HOW I WISH IM A PEROSN FREE OF PROBLEMS.
HOW I WISH TO GET ALL THAT.. ..

Just came back from school.
Was punished again for failing math. argh!
Hell, one more month nid to stay back. toot~!

After doing my punishment,
Headed to canteen, had lunch with rebecca.
Studied at the "pond0k" in school.
Nathasha,Shahidah&Raudha met us there.
And came yazid,Nashran,Syazwan and company..
Headed to my class with 'em.
Hell, they were funnie..
Nash was like, singing..cool!!
They made my day..

Can't sleep yesterday nite till this morning.
Dunnoe why.. im tired..
dun wish to elaborate..

Eh, im still nt satisfied uh..

Irahlicious

DELETING YOUR PICTURE AWAY FRM MY LOVE STORY
IS LIKE DELETING YOU IN MY LIFE.

but i will do it since it hurts u whenever
you see your pic on my love story.

Tell you something, im nt able to focus
on anything since this thing happen.
I know u dont want this to happen.
But ask your self.. why this things happen..

GoodBye

Irahlicious.

Why must all those sad things fall on me?
get this straight, either love me or leave me.

Dear Diary,

Yesterday was too harsh for me to handle.
So,around1 am, i sleep. Thinking i will
feel much much better in the morning.
But HELL!, i feel disgusting! i feel soo
sick! why why why!?!.. Arghh

Didnt attend Religious class and im sure
Father is angry about it. hehe.
Hello! im tired ok. thank you..
And now my stomach is killing me.


The Tag-Board is back.
The Taggers shld be back.
okay go! tag!
Danial was the first to tag.. haha.!
thanks eh. talking to him is great
but still, it wont change my mind.

I'm too sad and in pain to elaborate.
GoodBye readers.
GoodBye Khairul..

Irahlicious

Dear Diary,
Its now 21.41 a.m.
Just stop chatting with khairul.
P.S!! PEOPLE, HE HAS NTH TO DO WITH
ME ANYMORE. HE HURT ME TWICE.

We chatted and all.
He said, his not playing
around with me, its onlie that
he dun noe wat to do. haizz.
And I'm nvr his second choice.
Guy, i still don't understand you..
U said your sorry.
Its not easy to forgive you in such that
you've hurt me tons of time.

If u ever meet me somewhere.
dont show up infront of me.
I dun wish to see you. haix.

This is wat i get for all i've done?
All those good deeds..
Where's all your promises?
Where's the love?
Crying and all.
IM DISSAPOINTED IN YOU!
oh watever shit la.

Sister and abang is not home yet.
Parents asleep. Me alone. yikes.
Tomorrow gt religious class
which i onlie realises few minutes ago.
Havent prepare anything for it.
Homework? i wont do. hehe.

After that, going to nenek's place
for kenduri. Cant use computer.
Ohwell, its better. i wont cry alot.
In the middle of the night, i cry.
gembeng nyer aku! haha*
Hello. tengah sedih kn..

"i dont wish to be your special friend Khairul.
But to be a special one to you."

HELL .IM SOOOOOO EMOTIONALLY HURT.

Either Love Me or Leave Me.

Irahlicious

Dear Diary,

I went offline around 5 or 6pm.
cried over things that i shldnt cry on.
My eyes.. red and ugly. disgusting.

Now, im online and chatted with Danial
and yeap, he help me alot.
He help me to think positive-ly.
He said this*

"hey..cheer up,love is always like this.
cant expect everything to be the same
thing or the way u want it to be..those
things are always in ur dreams..but never in reality"

It's very true.. i really agree.
Thanks alot Danial.. haha.

Syafiqah 1e2 also help me alot.
She said that i shld not listen to
"emo" songs(emo? pe je!!!)..
she meant, slow slow songs la..
watever. but i want to.

thanks alot eh fika.

PS. dont try to stop me
if i do foolish stunts.
I'M WARNING YOU.
because, you hurt me twice.
once nt enuff uh?
byk kn siket uh..
4 kali ke 7 ke..

IT SHOWS THAT UR NT SERIOUS.
PLAYING AROUND WITH ME!
HELL!!! THIS IS AWFUL.!!!

irahlicious

Dear Diary,

Just got back the Internet.
Made changes to my blog. Cool.


Alot of things happen in a second.
I dont bother to elaborate but bout
the earlier post, im sorry. Real sorry.
Yesterday night, while lying on my bed,
i cover my eyes with my star beads
pillow. and cried. wanna noe why?
Friends problem and personal stuff.
I really pour everything out.

Found out my diary was torn,
the paper was torn out of the book. into pieces.
wanted to cry because, that diary is bought
by mira nadzirah and i put my heart&soul
whenEver im writing in It.
i dun wish people to read and all.
But can u imagine, all your bitter
feelings and all your sadness is not between
yourself? people know bout it.
Seriously, it was sad you know.


Put that aside.
I haf to move on.
I dont want to stuck here.
Like Sir Faizal say, life goes on.
Well said sir. hahahahah.
Im 13 now. im sure im
able to handle things properly
and have a mature&positive mindset.

Whatever it is, im sad. haizz.
Thanks people for tagging&the testi.
P.S- vote hady mirza.!!!!

Irahlicious